Comeback : Life After Marriage 2

Salam.

Bila agaknya kali terakhir aku update blog kesayangan aku ni. Terus terang, komitmen membuatkan aku terpaksa membuat pilihan dan set my priority right. Aku kena pastikan kebajikan keluarga di jaga dengan sempurna dulu sebelum membolehkan aku mengadap depan computer and start sharing my thought. Tp, bila hari2 berlalu, kerja makin banyak hingga ke tahap aku terpaksa bungkus Lappy gorgeous ni dan simpan ajer mcm thropy.

Ishk…ramai jer hot hot mommy out there yang dah beranak pinak and still active blogging. I admit. Time is my biggest enemy. Aku terlalu pentingkan having quality time with my little family, facing family drama (hahhah), having my beauty sleep after completed household chores for the whole day. Time flies without ME knowing it. Since ramai yang bertanyakan perkembangan aku (macamlah ko tu retis sgt kan), terima kasih kerana masih setia bersama yoishmeBlog ni. Aku memang seorang yg suka berkongsi pengalaman hidup dengan harapan perkongsian aku ni dapat memberi manfaat kepada pembaca walaupun cuma sedikit.

Ok, aku mulakan dengan pertanyaan yang paling kerap ditanya iaitu 

‘Life after MARRIAGE’.

It’s challenging at first. Even Maria Elena (Blogger Fav) tu pun struggle at first. Tapi jangan jadikan itu sebagai alasan crappy to give up easily. I believe there’s an ups and down in life. We must face it wisely. Ahakss…

Bagi wanita2 terhebat di luar sana yang merancang untuk mendirikan masjid dengan pasangan anda, satu je nasihat saya kepada kamu apabila kamu sudah berumahtangga nanti, COMMUNICATE!

Kadang2 mereka lupa macam mana nak berkomunikasi. Maklumlah kan dah kawin, now dah duduk sebumbung. Toleh kanan Nampak, toleh kiri pun Nampak. Takut nak tegur bila ada rasa tidak puas hati, kalau cakap lebih sikit nanti kecik hati pula, dah xnak balik umah bagai. Salah tanggapan tu. Macam mana kamu nak adapt towards each other lifestyle kalau basic paling utama (communicate) pun kamu gagal laksanakan.

Kita ambil contoh paling mudahlah.

Aku wanita yang over organize. Tiap rabu is laundry time. Baju kerja aku akan iron dan sangkut. Baju t’s dan rumah akan dilipat dan simpan accordingly. Tapi bila Mr. Hubby nak pakai baju, dia ambik ikut suka sampai satu tahap it all went messy. At first adalah perang mulut sekejap…then it stops but after a while it happened again.

Persoalannya ialah, takkan kamu nak perang mulut everytime it happened kan….agak funny juga, gaduh pasal baju dalam almari bersepah. Hahahahhah!!! Instead of perang mulut, try to communicate with him properly in language yang dia mudah faham.

‘Bang, apa masalah abg dgn almari dan baju ni bang. Abang mmg tak tenteram ya tgk baju tu tersusun rapi dlm almari. Abg mesti nk messy kan baju2 tu baru happy ya??’

‘Cubalah appreciate effort bini ni sikit. Ye lah, kan susah nk cari baju kalu keadaan almari messy mcm baru dilanda ribut tu. Kerja yg sepatutnya jd cepat akan lambat sebab terpaksa terkial-kial cari baju pulak’

Nanti kamu dengarlah excuse world’s book of record dia keluar. Hahahah!! Apa pun, try cari solution. Like my hubby, dah ‘tabiat’ katanya. So, I change the way I arranged his cloths. Baju fav yang kerap dia pakai tu yang aku sangkut. Yang kurang dipakainya aku lipat. Oklah, kurang sikit kekerapan ribut melanda dlm almari baju aku tue. Hahahha!!!

Ya, tak semua sifat dan perangai pasangan akan kita tahu ketika bercinta cintun. Their true color akan reveal once we live together as husband and wife (of course). So, always keep in mind that nobody’s perfect. You were mend to be together because Allah swt knows that you will complete each other.

There’s a flaw in you that he will fill and other way round. Be thankful in what you have in life. Don’t complain and be too proud of what you have. Be wise in everything you do. Mr Hubby, try to appreciate your wife effort and always be thankful that out of thousand millions men out there, she choose to be yours. As for the wife, try to understand your husband and adapt as he is who you choose to be with.

Moga segala yang kita rancangkan dipermudahkan. 

Read this  'Life After Marriage 1'

Mereka Lupa Kita Emo

Kadang-kadang orang ni tak tahu bila perlu berubah. Kadang- kadang mereka fikir, kita boleh telan semua selagi boleh. Apa yang mereka lupa ialah, kadang – kadang kita akan jadi penat. Lama- lama kita malas nak cakap dah. Bila kita reveal kan apa yang terbuku di hati ni, dia akan twist ke sana, twist ke sini. Akan ada sahaja rasional yang dia akan beri, kononnya ia juga demi kebaikan bersama. Really?

Kadang2 hal tu mungkin kedengaran terlalu silly, kalau orang tua – tua dgr mesti dorg akan nasihatkan jangan terlalu ikutkan hati, jangan memperbesarkan benda yang tidak penting. Tapi mereka lupa, hati kita macam mana? Sekarang ni, disebabkan hal yang kononnya silly tu, dah buat kita rasa tiada nilai. Buat kita rasa ‘NOT SPECIAL’, ‘NOT IMPORTANT’ anymore. Macam mana??

Mungkin juga dia lupa diri kot, tak pun kita ni yang terlalu over reacted? Really?? Kalau hal ni pernah ditegur dulu, then kenapa mesti it happened again? Adakah mereka sengaja nak uji kesabaran kita?? Really? Mereka lupa ke? Lama – lama kita akan mula rasa jelak!!

Kadang- kadang tu, kita fikir ‘If only I could turn back time’.

Entahlah, mungkin hormone pregnant ni buat aku jadi ‘SO EMOTIONAL’. Tapi, tak bermakna, apa yang aku cakap ni, sekadar melepas batuk ditangga. Aku tahu, mereka tak akan baca pun apa yang aku tulis ni. Sebab mereka peduli pulak dengan blog yang xseberapa ni. Well, like I said, ‘I’M NOT THAT SPECIAL OR IMPORTANT’. So, why should they care?!! So let it go lah….see how far it goes. When the time is right, will call it end!

Maybe, that’s the best for US!

Cameron Highland HoneyMood

My hubby promises me to go on vacation when he gets back from his 14th days’ work trip! Well, he knows me well, I will never forget to whatever he had promise me. So, he took me to Cameron Highland! 

So I said to ‘My Little Heartbeat’….”We gonna have fun!!!” 

We went to Cameron Highland for three days. Started on 15th until 17th of May 2012. We stayed in De’La Ferns Hotel which is located in the middle between Brinchang and Tanah Rata. Ringlet area is just not for me. Huhu…

The hotel rate are very affordable during the weekdays. Its only RM290 per night inclusive of: 

1 x Steamboat dinner 

2 x Breakfast 

1 x Dinner set

So we (me, hubby and my baby) decided to stay here. Plus the locations of the hotel are strategic for us who eager to explore around. Hahha!! But the weather is so cold!!! I love it. I even ask my hubby to buy a house here, and then we start our little family in here. He refused! Hahhaha!! So, here aree our activities pics…

De'La Ferns Hotel

When we arrived in our Hotel......just after we visit The Strawberry Farm. Which enable us to pick our own strawberry. The tips given by the workers there are, pick the one that are really red in color!! Usually, the small one is sweeter than the big one. It turn out to be true!!! Because when I bought the Strawberry in the market in Brinchang, it is not as sweet as the one that we pick ourself!

Strawberry Farm (Pick Your Own Strawberry)

 Our second day! We manage to captured the beauty of nature in the morning. The temperature?!! Cold like Paris!! hahahahha!! Luckily our Hotel did gave us pair of in-house shoes, so that my feet are not freezing! 

Our breakfast!! The main course we need to order first. But the rest are buffet style babeh!! Eat like you never eat your breakfast before. There's cereal, bread, variety of muffin and cakes, porridge and amazing local dishes! We just can't eat them all. huh....

This is Butterfly Farm!!! Located in Brincang area. It was fun in here. There's not only butterflies, but also a various of insects!! There' s a snakes too!!! A lot of it!! and a cuteeee Rabbit!!  

 I just love my Hubby...

We leave our signature there plus our baby's signature too!!! Hahhahah!! We've been here in 2012!!

If you are here, you must visit Bharat Tea House. You must try their Strawberry Scorn together with their flavor tea of your choice. But I prefer strawberry tea. Perfectly match with my strawberry scorn!! Having all that by looking at the wonderful tea farm ever!!! Gosh, I miss those moments!!! Then we bought plenty of flavor tea there!! All of the flavor they have, we have it too!! Try it! Awesome!

Actually, there's still a lot more picture that I didn't put in here. Coz I am toooo lazy to edit those millions of pictures in Cameron. However you can check my FB to see it more in details...hahha!! Till here...My last day pictures still in my hubby's phone. Hahhaa!! I wish I can share those pictures...haih!

Life After Married 1

If you know that your wife love to do laundry, don’t leave your Jeans around cause your wife will clear it and wash it. More often you leave it around, more often your wife will clear and wash it. Until one day you will start to realize there is something wrong with your Jeans! Hahahhaha!!!! Even though it’s your favorite Levi’s!

While you two watching the TV, when it’s about commercial time, change the channel to 411 (HBO-Astro) cause when your wife sees the new Downy especially in Pink she will asked for it!

“Hubby!!!!! I want that…..pleaseeee……”

No matter what your agenda is make sure you settle it before your husband reach home from work. If not, he will surely give you his long face and not-talking-to-you expression like. Hahhaa!!!

Whenever you in a car, before you turn on the radio, make sure that your wife favorite record not in there! If not, the only song you will hear is you wife singing the same song repeatedly. Then, she will ask you whether her singing sound good or not? Then, you gonna have to say…

“Wahh!! Even Katy Perry doesn’t sound like you!!”

Suddenly, house hunting becomes such a fun thing to do!! Aim for the ‘Rumah Contoh’ and go take a look inside. The wife will start to comments on the kitchen, how long the cupboard will be customize, where the fridge will be place and the hubby will talk about where to put the LCD TV! Hahhaaa!!

Whenever you hurt yourself, you can always tell your hubby and show him your wound. He will treat your wound with his magic word and kiss!

“Bismillahirahmanirahim! Fuh!! Fuh!! Ok, kejap lagi baik lah tu…”

When you wake up in the morning with your messy hair and suddenly your hubby wakes up too, ask him do you look pretty or not. He surely will not answer it, coz he will give you his sweet kiss as the answer.

Whenever you try a new recipe that you get it online, you don’t have to worry about the taste, cause someone will definitely finish it for you without complaint but compliment! Though you yourself don’t event like the taste of the recipes!

30 days of missing

Chaakkk!!! Hahhah!! (Scaaryyyy introduction!)

It’s been quite a long time since I’m updating this precious blog of mine. My dear Lee Ping keeps asking me when I will update my blog. Sorry my dear, it just everytime I put this finger on those keyboard, my eyes slowly close, then I’m like Zzzzzzz…..hmm…

But!!! I won’t let you down. I’ll try my best to update alright!

Here, I have some story to share. So, keep reading it aiit!

I lost my baby boy on 10.10.11!

According to Katy Perry (2011), in her latest single, The One That Got Away stated that ‘all this money can’t buy me a time machine’ (See!! I am doing my citation!! Will put in my reference page!! Hahahha!!). By all means, if only I can buy the time machine, I will definitely will. So, I can go back to the day my baby boy went missing and fix this broken heart of mine.

I am trying my best to find him. I knock on my neighbors’ doors asking about my baby. I’m distributes flyer around. I’ve been doing it for almost every night. In class, I keep holding my phone, just in case someone will call. But, I guess my neighborhood doesn’t care much about my lost I guess.

According to the petfinder site, indoor cat usually does not leave the house like that. It must be it accidently get out and get scared then run for hiding. Sometimes, they run to far from home and get lost. That’s the reason why I keep looking for him. I can’t give up easily thou.

As the day goes by, still no sign of him, I decided to make a giant poster with a reward! Hoping that, whoever sees my baby or accidently keeping my baby will contact me. Until today, it’s been a month, 30 days, no Luck. YET!

They said that cat is a very spiritual animal. So, I keep telling myself that he will come home soon. Someday. So, I must keep calling him back! Wish he find his way home! Wish that he’ll be just FINE.

p/s: Thanks hubby and siss for being there for me during my sorrow moments.

No Longer Special!

Bila dia mula rasa 

‘I don’t feel special anymore. Feel like shit!’

Kalaulah masa ni, kamu baru nak sedar….rasanya dah lambat kot. Kamu tak payahlah nak bermanja2 dengan dia ketika ni sebab perasaan dia dah tak ada untuk kamu. Tiap kali dengar suara kamu buat dia rasa teruk dan kecewa.

Kalaulah masa ni baru kamu nak wish good morning good night, rasanya tak payah bazir kredit kot. Sebab tak da nilai pun good morning good night kamu tu pada dia. sebab dia tahu, kamu buat bukan ikhlas pun. Sebabkan terigt tuntutan2 dia tempoh hari.

Kalaulah masa ni baru kamu nak minta sorry bagai, yang mana dia dah dgr berjuta kali kot! Tiada makna padanya. Sorry kamu, Cuma kata-kata penyedap telinga. Tidak pada hatinya.

Sebelum kamu menuding jari kearahnya, kamu juga harus sedar tindak – tanduk kamu yang membuatkannya sebegitu rupa. Dia perempuan materialistic?!!! So what! Kamu tak suka?? Kamu TINGGALKAN dia sekarang ini, sebelum terlambat!!!!!

Dia pentingkan KESEMPURNAAN. Tapi kamu tak pernah cuba mahu memahami sifatnya yang satu ini. Kamu ambil perkara sambil lewa!!!! Kamu tuntut berbagai2 seolah2 kamu itu seorang yang sempurna sifatnya! Selalunya pun, kamu yang betul, dia yang salah!

Rasanya, dia mula hilang identiti dirinya demi memuaskan hatimu. Tetapi kamu tidak pernah kata mahu berubah sikap, perangai demi kepuasan hatinya. Adilkah kamu? Setiap kali hatinya kamu sakiti, kamu mengharapkan dia beri kata2 semangat padamu. Tidak selfishkah kamu?

Kamu marah dia kerana pada kamu dia tidak bertolak ansur!!! Jikalau kamu benar2 fikirkan, apa lagi permintaan dari kamu yang dia tidak bertolak ansur?? Apa?!!

Percayalah, hati dia semakin menjauhi kamu. Cinta kini kedengaran lucu di hatinya.

p/s: Renung2kan....hahahhah!!!!

Abuya's Day!

When I look at the calendar, I get upset thou. Because father’s day is coming soon and yet, I’m still in a middle of drama with my dad. But I really want to celebrate father’s day like we always did!! We never miss it so I want to keep that record.

YES! I am a stubborn child. I mean, THE very stubborn child. I am still in a middle of protest toward my dad’s unfairness. This is because he is being unfair to me! Ok, let me share something with you…

There’s one shallow morning where I woke up from my bed, I had such a great pain on my neck. Like I almost crying when I tried to raise my hand. That’s how serious it is. So, I went to my dad’s room and asked him to help me send my mom and sis to work but he was refused because he needs his sleep. I told him that I was sick and I can’t move my head but he just don’t care, continue his sleeping.

So, I lost my temper (coz I’m in a great pain). When he came and asked me what happened (in a very high voice), I shout at him! So, maybe he felt that I’m being rude to him, thus he started to hit me. Luckily my mom and sis was there protecting me. Unluckily, still I got a few bruises from that fight! Full of drama right!! Hahhahah!!

Honestly, when I think about it I laugh. Never thought that I will be hit by my dad at this age thou. I mean if I’m a lil child might be rational, but I’m a big girl now. Huh. As for that, I’m not talking to him ever since!!! It is a protest towards his action by hitting me!! Because I am hurt!! Not really physically but inside. It’s my heart that hurts the most!!

So, I went to the hospital to check for my neck pain and the doctor suspects that I have a high blood pressures! Well, it’s my BP (Blood Pressure) reading a lil bit high 140/90. Yes of course my BP will high because I am not emotionally stable (still crying), plus I’m in a great pain doc. Believe it or not, these are factors that will affect BP reading. To be sure, the doctors set me for a 5 days straight appointment to take my BP reading.

In the end, I am healthy.

Seriously, I miss my dad. I miss watching movies with him, playing bowling with him, have good conversations with him, made fun of him with my others sissy, listen to his thought about his business, and eat McD in a middle of a night with him, watching football with him, most of all karaoke with him.

If only he knows that his most stubborn child is missing him.

“HAPPY FATHER’S DAY”

This child still love her father so much!!

p/s: Be fair. Is it too much to ask? Sometimes a child needs a father words, not a businessman words.

Me going BOLB!

I think, I need a new look! Since the weather in JB getting hotter and I am superb busy with my so-called life routine plus I’ve been eager wanted to cut my hair short exactly like Victoria Beckham as she is my idol. But, when I ask for my mom opinion she rejected it. So, I keep searching for a suitable Bolb cut that will satisfy not only me, but also my mom. (If not, she will complain about how ugly my hair is every time!).

As I a lil bit worried on will I look fat in Bolb cut, I ask for others opinions. Simply put, I get a positive feedback from them and here I am, in BOLB. Still high in glucose and happy with the results! You know how much does it cost me?!! Affordable!! Only RM68 by the Director herself at Thomas & Guys in CS. Plus, I got 2 more voucher worth of RM30 EACH!! So… ta da ta ta ta~ I’m lovi’n it! (as in McD song..huh!)

Experiences Peps!

On my way to the Banquet Office!

Working at Paragon teaches me a lot of things. Especially in life! Believe it or not, feels like home (sometimes).

At first I started doing my part-time job there, I was like stress. It is because, all of them talking weird language to me. I mean, as in my life, I only know that there is a thing that we call plate. But now they talking about a fish plate (big size), and surprisingly, plate already have a babies that we call it as a baby plate!!!! Then, there you are a dinner plate!

So, at first I was confused. Every time they ask me to find those plate in the kitchen, I’ll be like looking at the same thing that we call it plate, but only in a different size.

But, it never stops me to learn you know. I am a fast learner. You can count on me. But please, I still need your guidance to get through this. I’m still in a process of learning the hotel’s language (that’s what I call it).

Thanks to all the permanent staffs that never tired to teach me especially on how to set a table for a Chinese course and buffet. Let just say that, I am happy when I know how to do it. Biggest thanks to the supervisors! They rock my days!

But I love the most, when there are Chinese wedding!! Well, let’s forget how tired you will end up be, but think about ‘what if’ you will get an ‘angpow’ from the bride and groom!!! Consider it as our tips for a good service!

But, most of all I love buffet. Even though the table will get creepily messy, but it’s somehow a lil bit relax compare to Chinese course. No food presentation, no Chinese tea, or cold beverages to be served every time but only warm water that are need to be refill and clearing.

So, when I’m done working on my butt there, I went home with smiles. My legs are tired as hell, but at least I learned something from it. All I need is experienced. So, I will collect my payment on Wednesday/Friday a week after. Then, I went shopping, as a reward for my hard work!!

Truthfully, I love working there. That’s the only time where I can meet with new people. Because most of my time I only stay at home watching TV, play with my babies’ hamsters and my four gorgeous flurry cats!! Easy to say, I have zero social life. Which is that who I am ACTUALLY. So, this experiences, somehow teach me how to blend with other people! Believed it or not, I am trying.

'Music-Drugs'

I believe that beautiful song came from one person’s honest feeling.

That’s why when I hear a song that reflects my feeling exactly the same at that moment, I feel relief!! Because I can tell the whole world bout my feeling openly without them even realize about it! Hahhaha!! Call me weird, because I am weird.

Yes! Music and movie are my ‘drugs’. I cannot live without it! Literally.

Usually I got my inspiration in writing through music. I admit it, that I’m not really a big fan of malay songs. It’s not that I’m forgetting my own roots, let just say that I have a different interpretation about music. However, I am deeply in love with Faizal Tahir’s songs!!!!! Recently, his ‘Hanyut’ song really makes me wonder. Hurm….

Faizal Tahir - Hanyut

But yes!!! No matter how bad the attitude of the singer, I just don’t give a damn about it, what I know, if they produce such a beautiful song that are successfully wrap up my feeling, I will listen to it again and again. You know what, I used to memorize all Eminem songs!!! It feels real to me though.

One of my favorite artist till I die~ Is JAY CHOU! For the first time I listen to his song, ‘Ye Ye Pao De Cha’ means Grandfather’s Tea, I fell deeply in love with him!! Honestly, I don’t understand the meaning coz its in mandarin but I feel in love with his song!!!!!!!!

Jay Chou - Ye Ye Pao De Cha

So, I’ve been strike ‘piano-lesson’ fever for a while but cause lack of money and time constraint, I didn’t manage to attend any of music class. Huhu…even though, that time my tuition center, Omega next to the Yamaha Music Center.

As for now….I'm connected to this song!!!

Lenka - Heart Skips a Bit

My Little Sissy!

She cried calling me from far far away in UUM. Telling me how stress she is right now. On her shoulder carried tons of responsibilities as the 2ND NYDP MPP of UUM but at the same time, she have to keep up with her commitment in her study. She is stuck between responsibility and commitment.

So, I told her that, problems usually doesn’t come alone, it always comes with solutions. As for me, big responsibility causes you big sacrifice too. Suddenly I remember about the opportunity cost in economic! If my classmate read this, sure they can explain it in detail, especially Taiko. He’s such a brilliant guy!! He scores 31 out of 40 for our economic trial test! Envy him!!!

Opportunity cost is the cost of thing that you did not choose (the alternative) because you choose other thing. In a simple way, imagine now you have to choose between Bruno mars and Jay Chou. So, after a few cat fight with Jolin and Rehanna, you decided to choose Donald Trump! Ehhhh!!! Out of list! Ok, you choose Jay Chou because he’s superb cute (But T.O.P much more cuter!! My nose is bleeding oredy~~~). So, Bruno Mars is your opportunity cost! Understand?! No?? (I’ll call Taiko to help you next time lor..)

Ok, I’ll stop all my nonsense from this point.

Back to the story, I know that even though she seems small in figure, but she has a big heart! She said that she miss my presence in UUM (like the old days), only if she know I miss her trillion times than she thought! Because she is thousands miles away from me, I assigned one Ninja to look after her.

As for you my little sister…

Whenever you feel like crying,

I’ll pampered you with my lullaby,

Whenever you feel hopeless,

I’ll electrify your spirit

Whenever you feel lost,

I’ll clear your path with Naruto's Jutsu,

Whenever you in trouble,

I’ll find solutions with Sasuke's sharingan,

Whenever u need an advice,

I’ll gave you all that I have

'Melayu Pelat'

Haih…”Si Melayu Pelat”, tak pernah habis dgn DENGKI! Pengkhianat will always be Pengkhianat!

Ok, first of all, this is nothing to do with racism or what so ever. This entry specially made for this particular person who turns out to be “Melayu Pelat” already.

Why I call her that?? Did you see that I mention ‘Her’ and not ‘Him’….how did I know it’s a ‘Her’?

First of all, guy don’t usually touch ‘sensitive issue’ since they care less compare to a girl.

Guy don’t play truth or dare with a girl they don’t actually like.

Only girl who hate another girl will talk bad about certain issues and dare each other. They tend to chicken out by being anonymous. Poor life…childish isn’t it.

She became ‘Melayu Pelat’ because she talks in malay with a Chinese slang. Try her hard to hide her identity.

To you chicken lady…

I know that you miss me a lot (like crazy), since I’m no longer available for you to copycat ( I know you have a very weird way of dress up!). Opps!!!

Firstly, you have to learn to read English, not only read, you have to understand the whole content. I think, I’m using the most simple and easy to understand English in my blog. Rarely involve literature in my writing and yet you still fail to read it properly and throw your stupid tantrum about it. You really know how to make me laugh like hell!

I know you envy me soooooo much, that’s why you can’t take your eyes on me. No wonder you keep coming to my blog with different characters each time! But hey, no matter how hard you try to change your characters, you can never fool me poor girl.

So, here are my advised to you, owh!! But first, please take out your English-Malay dictionary please..

1.Azalinya Si Dugong, dengkikan Duyung yang bertuah mengahwini putera raja di daratan.

2.Bersihkan dulu ‘lumut2’ di ‘dasar lautan’ sebelum menjengah ‘rumput’ di ‘daratan’.

3.Kurangkan hasad dengki dan khianat kerana ia akan meningkatkan jisim berat badan dan menyukarkan Dugong utk berenang2.

4.Kurangkan umpat, banyakkan ilmu. Jangan suara mengumpat jauh lebih lantang dari membaca!!

Owh…forget to let my readers know, this Dugong don’t really understand English. So, I have to advise her in Malay. Hopefully she takes note.

Since I have life, I can’t ‘play’ with you often!!! However, I will try to update, just in case you curious to know more about my life…

p/s Dugong: Along dah kahwin….go to D*I*V*A blog klu terdesak nak tahu.

p/s: Get a life!!

Hot Temper! Enough!

You know what, being nice is not easy. Trust me, I know. Sometimes, we try and keep trying to understand people conditions and try not to make it worst. But it seems like, they just don’t even care. All they know is their mood, their problem, their satisfaction. Ever did once they notice that every time they did that, it hurts me like crap!

But then again, I’m trying not to take it seriously coz I understand them. But I do have my limits though. I’m tired being yell and accuse over thing that they felt not satisfied with as they please. Where their respect? How it feels like, when people disrespect you? You tell me, and I tell you that is exactly how I feel!

So, you had a bad day. You’re moody. You’re mad. You feel unease. But it doesn’t mean that you can throw all your bad momentum to other people as you please. I’m tired. I’m tired being told to myself that it’s ok and tomorrow will be better. Because the truth is, even though tomorrow will be different, those hurts remain the same.

Yes I’m a quite person. I don’t talk much. I don’t have many friends to be sharing story with. Some of them have their own problem to take care of. I have to be independent. I have to be strong. That’s why I have my diary. So, I can write all my sorrows in it without hurting anyone. Give no burden to other people’s mind. If I can do it, why can’t other people?

My heart hurts. My feelings, it’s being scattered around with no directions. I’m falling into pieces. Did anyone ever care? Did you ever notice? Hmmm…..as I thought. Yet, I still can understand you.

Why is that people we love, hurts us the most?

"Capang is GOOD!"

It is weird when you didn’t know one person, I mean u never ever, not even once knows the person and suddenly out of nowhere, the person criticized you in a low-class kind of way! Where’s the manner!!

I was on duty last Saturday at Peragon Hotel. As a part-timer, I didn’t really know most of the staff there. Actually, I don’t even care! What I know, I went there, do my job the best I can and then go home. So, frankly speaking I don’t have enemy but friends.

So, that day, me and my 3 others girls went down to the staff café to take our break. We went there with our Banquet Manager, Mr. Suku. So, we were eating and chatting like normal and nothing extreme thou.

And then, there they are two girls and one guy. I hardly notice them the moment I enter the café. But, after I finished my meal, I went to the kitchen to put my plate into the dishwasher with the other two girls and suddenly this sound came out!!

“Telinga capang!!”

At first, I didn’t heard it. But my friend, Hidayah heard it and told me.

“Eh Sya! Ko dgr tak dia kata apa tad?”

“Kata apa weh??”

“Tak pepasal nak kata kau telinga capang”

“Dorang tue dr kita makan tadi dok tgk2 ko! Aku igtkan apa…”

“Hahahahhah!!! Tak pasal2!!”

In short, I don’t know who they are and what their issue with me. Whatever it is, I don’t fight with a low-class minded like that. Hahahhah!! Owh!! Btw!!! Dian Sastrowardoyo pun telinga capang!! Cantik jer!!! Huhuu….

Owhhhhh!!! I just love my ears!!!

p/s: Kenapa pompuan melayu, tak abis2 nak dengki each other erk?!

Southern College,JB

It’s been a while since my last updates in here. Sorry for the lack of updates!

For those who didn’t know, I’m no longer in Kedah anymore. I’m in my hometown. My home sweet home JB!! Honestly, I’m dying to be in here. I just miss those comfort and quite environment in here. Gosh, I’m glad that I’m finally here, typing this updates on my coffee table in my room, assist by my cutest teens cats who never fail to make me smile and happy.

You know what, sometimes we didn’t get what we wanted in life. As for that, it doesn’t mean that we have to just let it go and do nothing and just following what God have been decided to us. With an effort and faith, we afford to change our future. At least, I believe in it.

Now, I’m continuing my study in Southern College. Which 99% of the students are Chinese and I’m the only malay student in my batch! I’m taking UK Degree Program from Teesside University. It’s a 3+0 program which allowed me to finish my final year in UK (IF, I’m lucky to get their full sponsorship, which means that, I have to get a great gred). I’m looking forward to that.

Consider myself a lucky one to have such a supportive classmate!!! In my opinions, these are the different between Chinese and malay student. Chinese, they support each other!! Malay, they condemn each other (This is only my humble opinion, based on my experiences-don’t simply judged me yet).

I only have four subjects to be cover in final exams and another 3 subjects will be evaluating base on assignments! It seems like I’m having a lot of free time isn’t it? But you’re wrong, coz I have to do my research and reading. Gonna have to reviews a lots of journals and thesis!!

Owh! I’m still in a process of learning mandarin. Thanks to my classmates who never tired to explain the same thing they said in mandarin to English, just to make sure that I can understand them! I’ve been bless.

Here is the good news!! For the first time in my education history, I’ve got a sponsorship from Southern College itself! Thanks so much for this opportunities. So, UK….wait for me!!!!! (Wish me luck peps!!)

p/s: Yes!!!! I miss him real bad!

Beritahu Aku!

Macam mn kita nak fahamkan seseorang itu tentang kepentingan ‘MINAT’ dalam melakukan sesuatu?!!

Jika hati kita kata TIDAK BERMINAT, maka tiada usaha akan dilakukan, tiada keinginan, tiada kesungguhan, tiada semangat, tiada kesedaran. Kosong.

Sebagai contoh:

Kamu minat pada si dia, tapi ibumu mahu kamu sunting Si Joyah Jongang. Tapi hati kamu memang TAK MINAT. Ibumu suruh cuba, mana tahu cinta datang selepas kahwin. Maka kamu turutkan keinginan ibumu kerana hormatkan beliau. Kahwinlah kamu berdua. Dimalam pertama, kamu tidak teringin mahu menyentuhnya. Apatah lagi bila kamu lihat giginya yang jongang tue. Tiap, hari kamu lepak di kedai kopi dan berharap kamu akan terserempak dengan Si dia. Namun, kamu juga tahu bahawa Si Dia pun sudah ramai yang datang merisik. Kamu mula jadi tak menentu. Sudahnya, niat hati kamu ingin menceraikan Si Joyah dan meminang Si Dia. Tapi disebabkan ibumu, kamu tersekat diantara dua keputusan!!

Kamu faham tak apa yang aku cuba sampaikan dalam maksud tersirat ni?

Kejayaan itu, kita boleh capai dalam pelbagai cara. Rezeki Allah itu luas! Mungkin hari ini ditutup-NYA pintu rezeki kita, kerana disediakan-NYA untuk kita pintu rezeki yang jauh lebih baik!

Cuba kamu tanya setiap makhluk dimuka bumi ini, mana yang sanggup melepaskan sesuatu yang telah diusahakannya selama bertahun-tahun begitu sahaja tanpa hasil. Siapa?

Kamu! Cuba kamu letakkan dirimu di tempatku. Beritahu aku, apa usahamu! Lakukan untukku! Laluinya untukku!!! Dan buktikan padaku bahawa kamu akan usahakannya 100% tanpa jemu. Dan bila hasilnya tetap mengecewakanmu, cerita padaku keperitanmu…kekecewaanmu....

Seorang aku, cuma manusia biasa. 

Tidak miliki kuasa mengubah realiti.

Hatiku cuma, hati manusia. 

Teguh dengan sokonganmu,

Rapuh berkecai dek kata-katamu.

Kudrat ku cuma seorang manusia. 

Tiada mampu ku tanggung lara yang padat

Fahami aku, mengerti aku. 

Tiada ku minta, apa-apa diluar kemampuanmu. 

Cuma mengemis sokonganmu. 

Pengertianmu.

Restumu.

Beri aku peluang untuk mengejar keinginanku. Kemahuanku. Kehidupanku.

Selagi usiaku masih muda.

p/s: Masa depanku ibarat gunung dibalik kabus! Samar2 ketika ini, tetapi bila mentari menyinar terang, ia menjadi jelas. Yang ada cuma jalan.